TaLKING Myself :)

I have a sort of problem. (Not a bad one if u ask me...) I talk to myself. Somehow the effect of hearing your words or thoughts loudly makes them seem more realistic and sometimes more manageable. I love talking to myself and i talk more

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Often Im engrossed in self conversations springing up new ideas which make me laugh as well. Many times, it soothes me or even gives me solutions to many questions in my mind. I am also an avid thinker. Often unrelated issues spring up in my head like a random chain of bizarre thoughts and then I enjoy trying to figure out and backtrack my thoughts to the origin and laugh about it. Train journeys are my getaway. I simply enjoy just looking out of the window and pretending to look outside while my brain is on a journey of its own..perhaps ons away. Today was no different. It was a deserted walkway at around 1:30 in the afternoon when i have finished my paper . I was mentally making a plan as to where I had to go home or to cheer mind in freinds home and whom I had to meet (i have Given her a lot of work). But then as usual, something funny crept up in my mind and I laughed and then invariably started whispering something to myself. I was under the blissful impression that I was all alone when gosh! I spot the watchman staring at me, clearly under the impression some lunatic had taken asylum in the campus of college.(what i was thinking i dont knew but i can say it recharge my battery after exam)

To deal with the situation and not to confirm his belief that I was really mad, 3 corrective actions came to my mind: 1. To continue doing what I was doing and forget that I saw someone looking at me. 2.To stare back at him in a sinister way and let him believe I am mad. 3.To pretend it was a song I was actually singing and hum some random lyrics with some massacred song loudly so that he thinks I was singing and enjoying myself. Ah! It is another case of embarrassment, but the worst one I can think of. Thankfully, 2 boys came out because they also completed their paper at the same time. I quickened my steps started my activa and almost ran.